Theera Ulaa | Neetoh Alaa | With you

5 years of distance; and togetherness.....

Most 'K' serials dont last this long. Such has been the girth, persistence and intrepidity of the distance in our relationship, which has pretty much stayed 'long-distance' relentlessly over the 5 years that we've been together as of today. Jokes apart, at the risk of sounding cliched, may I say we've only grown closer over the while. 

Five years; does seem like a very short time and a long time at the same time. What started for me as a high school flame grew into a passionate endeavor, then moved into that much feared second phase of obsessions and frustrations, only to grow into this mellow sublime zone that has us revel in trust, respect, understanding and above all, friendship. In scientific terminology, maybe this is what they call as normalization, but I'll let my inner geek be subdued while I write this one.

What intrigues me about these past five years is how the relationship has been so much more than just passion, intimacy and fondness; it has brought out the worst aspects of me that I'd never figured I had in me. As many of those long lost poets would reckon, I was laid bare, only for me to introspect continuously and learn more about myself and life. The fights were equally important as the love; the arguments as much as the agreement, the distance as much as the intimacy, the pain as much as the fun....

Can't really think of a lot more to write now; but to confess about that mystical feeling I get everytime I realize your love for me. And what can better depict that than the look in your eyes...with their shy charming excitement in them everytime we meet; or the empty longing look of them that usually shows up a day or so before we'd be about to part again, only to meet a few months or a year after. As I was watching O Kadhal Kanmani/OK Bangaram recently, just around the time when the track "Theera Ulaa/Neetoh Ala" kicks in, I saw the same look in Nithya Menen's eyes. And in a sudden bolt of realization, I choked in the theater, in revelation of the depth of that look....

Ah that song; it so much resonates with what usually our tryst with love and life feels like. A hastiness, a pleasure, one that keeps no track of time, and knows no bounds; Just a strange journey, in life, emotion and time. 'Five years' does seem like a very short time and a long time at the same time.